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PostPosted: Wed May 20, 2015 8:59 am 
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I have been married for almost 9 years. It all started about 2 yrs after we wed..something was off my husband was different the love and passion he had for me was no longer...i kept asking if he was cheating he use to send dirty txt to a girl saying he was just joking and all but i knew smtg was off...he didn't want to have sex but he would masturbate or watch porn...so so in î just decide to give him the benefit of the doubt all the time and let it go...one day he said he got tired of talking to that girl and that was all...the maybe 1 year later he was talking on the phone with a girl at 2 am when i woke up he said it was just a friend and it meant nothing..but i knew again smtg was up but i could never get a real proof...then 1 day i saw a text saying they were gonna have sex tonight when i confronted him he said it was true and it was just the beggining of things...foward couple of years it was a mix of good bad forgiveness cheating chatting porn watching masturbating....then i saw a movie about porn addiction and i thought thats what my husband had we did some therapy he confessed that he did a lot more cheating than i think and he wanted to get better only i think that i underestimate the addiction and the recovery process we were doing so well and he seemed to have change after 7 yrs marriage i got pregnant and i felt so close to him..there were still signs of problems but i ignored it because i didn't upset my pregnant self...i had my baby and almost next day everything came crashing...i was so emotional hormonal tired i had no patience for his mistakes...n one day he was chatting in the middle of the night needless to say with the little sleep i had in me with a new born i snapped...anyway next day he said he wasnt happy...after 2 3 months fighting i said maybe we should separate he said we should wait then 1 month later he said he agrees to separation...he said i wasnt the wife he needed 1 month after i moved out he said he wanted a divorce and he wont change his mind because i am not the woman for him...next day he said that he lost his job...now inhave to move back in for financial reasons but he said he will move in 2 3 months in another city about 12hrs away...now it will be me and my 10 month old daughter...im pretty sure my husband is an addict but at this point i dont think he wants to hear it...i still love him...i wish there's smtg i could do for him but i know i cant...only God can ...i know i neef have to focus on me and my daughter and start a healing journey Even if i think about him constantly.


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