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PostPosted: Mon Jun 19, 2017 6:32 pm 
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I hope I'm posting this in the right place. I'm new to RN. I have been married 22 years and we have 5 children. I discovered my husband's sex addiction 2 years ago when I was innocently trying to help him with his erectile dysfunction. He was only 39 at the time & kept insisting it was a medical problem & he was worried about his health. He just wanted some pills to make his thing work again but I recognized all the signs of porn induced ED. I was devastated because I finally realized it was an addiction and he'd been lying to me constantly for 20 years. I found his rags in his car and a portable movie player he bought with several movies he purchased. He lied right to my face saying he threw it out. I asked him to take me to the dumpster he supposedly threw it in. He went out and retrieved the DVD player& movies knowing he wasn't talking his way out of it this time cuz he'd lied too much. I caught him several times with the porn on my computers but he always minimized it saying it was no big deal and he wouldn't do it again if it bothered me. Then I would catch him again and be so hurt and confused. I didn't know people could be addicted to this. All I really know is when he lies to me, I don't know what the truth is. He says he only ever looked at porn but I have many reasons and suspicious behavior and incidences over the years that makes it hard for me to believe that. I don't even care anymore. I can't obsess over what he's done cause I already know it ain't nothin good. Recently he was at it again and it hurt more this time cuz he kept telling me there's no way he'd ever do it again after what we went thru 2 years ago. Now he says this time he really won't do it again and he's got his mind right, he says he doesn't need help he can manage on his own, he doesn't have a problem and isn't having any cravings. I just want to get better so I can take care of my kids. I've been married to him since I was a teenager and been a stay at home mom most of the time.


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PostPosted: Tue Jun 27, 2017 8:35 am 
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Exercise 2

I am an artist. I value beautiful, skillfully made handcrafted art. I see myself creating unique items for people to wear and enjoy, bringing beauty, color, and art into their homes and lives. I am a businesswoman. I value financial security and stability. I see myself earning a living and providing for my children through my crafts business. I am a tiller of the soil. I value clean, homegrown fruits and vegetables. I see myself growing a viable garden to provide my family with healthy food. I am a keeper of flocks. I value strong healthy bodies. I see myself raising heritage chickens and turkeys to provide healthy meat for my family. I am a baker. I value delicious home baked goods made with high quality, clean ingredients. I see myself keeping my family in constant supply of delicious treats and home baked bread. I am an animal lover. I value the joy that comes from connecting with another species and finding some commonality between us and them. I value the quality of life and health care my pets receive. I see myself being a responsible pet owner and having years of enjoyment caring for animals of many different kinds. I am a teacher. I value knowledge of any and all kinds. I see myself teaching these skills to my children that will help them live a sustainable, healthy, joy filled, and interesting life. I am a mother. I value my children above all else. I put this last because I see that once I do all the other things I have listed, I will be the kind of mother I have always wanted to be.


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