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PostPosted: Tue Sep 16, 2008 5:37 am 
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Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 1; Day 1

A.
1) Actively committing yourself to change;
I?m ready for change. I have only recently admitted to myself that I have addictions. But I have quickly realized it?s time for change. I don?t want to be leading this addictive lifestyle anymore. It?s not healthy for me or the people I care about.

I am committed to succeed. As instructed in the workshop opening I have stapled this message to a chicken.*

2) Not allowing guilt/shame to sabotage your commitment to change;
I don?t feel any guilt/shame within myself to my commitment to change. In fact, I?m embracing the need to change. However, there is a certain amount of guilt/shame in sharing my problem with others. Especially as I?m overseas at the moment and don?t have close friends/family to help with my recovery. The personal coaching, that I?ll join at the end of the week, and forums will be very helpful here.

3) Allowing yourself time to change;
I realize to overcome addictions takes time. I?m excited to be tackling it head on and addressing areas of my life that should have been addressed a long time ago. It?s not going to be a quick fix, but every day get?s closer to my full recovery.

B.
Look deep inside and list ten to fifteen reasons why you seek to permanently change your life.
1. Deep inside I know it?s time for change.
2. I want to control my life.
3. I want to lead a healthy lifestyle.
4. I want to feel guilt free/unashamed.
5. I want to be committed in my relationship.
6. I want to lead a normal life.
7. I don?t want my addictions interfering with my family, friends and career.
8. I want be happy and satisfied with all my actions every day.
9. I want to use my time wisely.
10. I want to be able to have a few drinks with friends without a) looking for sex b) drinking excessively.
11. I want to stop looking at women as objects.
12. I want to be honest with my partner.
13. I want to be proud of myself for overcoming my addictions.
14. I want to break these habits and take back control.
15. I want to put my money to good use instead alcohol and women.

C.
As I?m currently overseas I don?t have a photo. I?ll come back to this one.

*Don?t worry I?m vegetarian, no harm was done to any chickens, lol.


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re: "*DonÂ’t worry IÂ’m vegetarian, no harm was done to any chickens, lol."

This was the first thing I read when I opened your thread and I thought, "What in the heck is he talking about?!" I get it now. Keep that sense of humor, it can become one of your greatest allies in recovery. :wink:

re: "Look deep inside and list ten to fifteen reasons why you seek to permanently change your life."

Excellent. Positive and sustainable. This next week will be a challenge for you, because you will be focusing on 'non-addiction' things--which some people have a hard time connecting to in 'addiction recovery'. Doesn't have the same spice--if you know what I mean. FIND THE SPICE. Find a way of really embracing the value of what you will be doing over these next six lessons.

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Thanks very much for your reply Jon. Much appreciated to get some feedback. I noticed your sticky message, I see you and the site have a long and interesting history, I wish you luck that everything goes to plan. I find it very inspirational what you've been through to keep going. I also noticed that you might be closing the site for a short time. I was thinking of getting personal coaching, will this still be available if the site is down? If not, when will the personal coaching start again?

By the way, is it possible to change my username for both the forum and recovery manager? IÂ’ve realized I want a less identifiable username. I can see how to change my username for the recovery forum. I'm guessing it should match what I use for the recovery manager though.
Thanks,

Month 1; Week 1; Day 2

A Healthy Vision

Social drinking; this is an aspect that I really need to focus on. I want to be able to go out with friends in the weekend and enjoy a few drinks then go home. I have tried abstinence from alcohol for months at a time but am caught in a cycle. It should be noted here that IÂ’m not an alcoholic, I donÂ’t drink on a daily basis or feel the need to drink, but when I do go out I tend to binge drink once every week or two. ItÂ’s at these times that my sex addiction seems to kick in. Part of my long term vision is to drink with friends socially at the weekend and stop at that. Is this realistic? Or should I be avoiding alcohol altogether, at least during the recovery phase, as I know it can be a trigger time for me?

Being active in sports/exercise; this is an area that sometimes lacks when my addictions kick in. I realize that exercise is very important for addiction recovery. The endorphins felt in exercise are a healthy way to feel good as opposed to the kick from addictions. Also, for me sport and exercise are an excellent way for socializing and getting out of the house. In these next few months it will be important for me to build a network of friends that doesnÂ’t involve the weekend drinking at the pub (a known trigger point).

Being sincere to my partner; I can see a time when I will be faithful to my partner. We have just started our relationship and she is a loving and caring person, I want to treat her with the same respect that she treats me with.

Promoting vegetarianism in the City I live in; I feel I can put a lot of energy into this as I feel/believe quite strongly in this area. I live in a country somewhere in Asia. It is rare to meet local vegetarians however I do come across ex-pat vegetarians/vegans from time to time. I have had a vision since I arrived in the country to get something going and help one another. I just needed the motivation. Well day two of my recovery workshop is motivation enough. I started a thread on a social networking website today and already had 7 members join. I want to get a group up and running to 1) promote vegetarianism in a country that it is rare and 2) help those that are vegetarians with useful information and translations for finding and ordering food.

For the community; currently IÂ’m in a field that has little to do with what I studied. IÂ’d like to offer free exercise consultation and training programs to the local community. Part of it is a selfish need to keep up to date with the industry, but I also see it as a way I can give back to the community a service that helps others with their health and wellbeing. A lot of my life recently has been egocentric. Part of my recovery vision is to get out of my own head and start putting my skills to good use.

Foreign language; after 18 months in this country I have a reasonable grasp of the language for a beginner (by no means can I have conversation but I’m starting to understand what is being said). I want to devote more time to learning this language. This would potentially give me more time outside the house communicating to locals. I’ll spend less time on the computer needing my ‘English fix’, equating to less chance of looking at porn.

Spirituality; I have dabbled in various meditation techniques over the past few years. I'd like to be more committed and regular with my personal and group practice.


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PostPosted: Fri Sep 19, 2008 8:15 am 
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Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 1; Day 3. The Role of Values.

A) Positive valuesÂ…Â…

1. Being dedicated to tasks and people
2. Controlling my actions
3. Moderation in my actions
4. Enjoying social outings
5. Living life healthily
6. Routine exercise to feel good about myself
7. Keeping in shape
8. Sincerity to my partner
9. Sincerity to myself
10. Openness with my partner
11. Honesty to myself
12. Relaxed attitude to life and others
13. Strength with friendships
14. Strength family ties
15. Respecting myself
16. Respecting my partner
17. Sense of humor
18. Caring for other beings
19. Protecting others
20. Caring for the environment
21. Helping others
22. Loving myself
23. Loving others
24. Committing myself to a ‘higher source’
25. Regular meditation
26. Everyday spirituality
27. Staying active
28. Being playful
29. Integrity
30. Being an inspiration to others
31. Keeping the mind active
32. Being competent at my job
33. Being competent as a person
34. Bringing peace and happiness to others
35. Doing well with everything I do
36. Being humble
37. Considering others opinions
38. Role model for others
39. Being creative
40. Being happy
41. Being peaceful
42. Developing long term relationships
43. Being patient
44. Developing my meaning for life
45. Organizing myself
46. Financially sound
47. Avoiding conflict
48. Being a leader
49. Communicating feelings
50. Feeling content
51. Tolerance
52. Self discipline
53. Teaching others
54. Sense of accomplishment


B) Dark side

1. Instant gratification
2. Desire for the unknown
3. Closeness
4. Feeling needed/wanted
5. Experiencing forbidden
6. Feeling free of constraints
7. Physical pleasure
8. Vulnerability
9. Relive stress
10. Avoid commitment
11. Avoid love
11. Relive daily fantasies
12. Lack of activity
13. Throw it all away attitude
14. Helplessness


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Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 1; Day 4

My top 20 values...

1. Relaxed attitude to life and others
2. Moderation in my actions
3. Controlling my actions
4. Feeling content
5. Sense of humor
6. Being playful
7. Sincerity to my partner
8. Sincerity to myself
9. Routine exercise to feel good about myself
10. Communicating feelings
11. Caring for the environment
12. Caring for other beings
13. Being happy and peaceful
14. Everyday spirituality
15. Being dedicated to tasks and people
16. Loving myself
17. Considering others opinions
18. Developing long term relationships
19. Being humble
20. Developing my meaning for life


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 Post subject: Hello Michael
PostPosted: Sun Sep 21, 2008 10:03 pm 
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I hope you don't mind me posting in your recovery thread.
This may make sense when you read the following:

Exercise 15
II. Find a post from someone just starting out in the recovery workshop and offer your constructive thoughts based on what you have learned, experienced to this point in your recovery. Remember that you are not 'coaching' them...you are not offering your opinion and/or advice...you are simply sharing your knowledge and/or experience with them.


My 2 cents....
When you get to the days of "Building your ProActive plans", really take the time over the week to revisit them and build day by day. A lot of times I rush into getting a weeks worth of work into 2 or 3 days. When I spent that whole week (heck, I still change them a little) building my plan it really made it stronger and made me dig deeper. I was really starting to see a change in my life at that point.

I really wish you the best!

Peace,
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PostPosted: Tue Sep 23, 2008 3:20 am 
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TEDO wrote:
I hope you don't mind me posting in your recovery thread.
This may make sense when you read the following:

Exercise 15
II. Find a post from someone just starting out in the recovery workshop and offer your constructive thoughts based on what you have learned, experienced to this point in your recovery. Remember that you are not 'coaching' them...you are not offering your opinion and/or advice...you are simply sharing your knowledge and/or experience with them.


My 2 cents....
When you get to the days of "Building your ProActive plans", really take the time over the week to revisit them and build day by day. A lot of times I rush into getting a weeks worth of work into 2 or 3 days. When I spent that whole week (heck, I still change them a little) building my plan it really made it stronger and made me dig deeper. I was really starting to see a change in my life at that point.

I really wish you the best!

Peace,
Tedo


Thanks Tedo. I will take that onboard.


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Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 1; Day 5

Top 15 values

1.Relaxed attitude to life and others
2.Moderation in my actions
3.Controlling my actions
4.Feeling content
5.Sense of humor
6.Sincerity to my partner
7.Routine exercise to feel good about myself
8.Communicating feelings
9.Caring for the environment
10.Caring for other beings
11.Being happy and peaceful
12.Everyday spirituality
13.Loving myself
14.Considering others opinions
15.Sexuality ~ sexual gratification, being sexually adventurous, feeling sexually desired (a negative side effect of these values is leading to promiscuousity).


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Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 1; Day 6

Building Proactive Action Plans I
Exercise 6

Proactive Action Plan: Routine exercise to feel good about myself
* After finishing work start exercise straight away.
* Plan the day before what I?ll do and what time I will exercise on days off and weekends.
* Text friends and arrange times to play sport/exercise.
* Record exercise on calendar.

Proactive Action Plan: Everyday spirituality
* Wake up at 7am weekdays. Start yoga/meditation by 7.30am.
* Weekends try to start yoga/meditation as soon as I get up.
* If I need to do something on the weekends, plan to get up 30 minutes earlier to allow enough time.
* Regularly attend group meditation on Sundays.
* Talk to friend about morning meditations?

Proactive Action Plan: Maintaining sense of humor
* Download and watch comedy shows/movies regularly. Watch them if I have time during the week or weekends.
* Spend more time with friends that have a good sense of humor.
* Maintain a healthy workload during the week to avoid stress.
* Stay relaxed during conversations and at work and look for opportunities to include humor.
* Don?t get carried away and try to be too funny.
* Watch for other people?s signals/body language to gauge what is appropriate.
* Remember my partners limits i.e. what is funny for me might not be for her.


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re: "I also noticed that you might be closing the site for a short time. I was thinking of getting personal coaching, will this still be available if the site is down? If not, when will the personal coaching start again?"

No problems with the site closing for a bit. The community has stepped up above and beyond what was needed and so, we should be stable until after the tools are built and financial self-sustainability is achieved. Either way, anyone I take on as a coach, I stay with until they are comfortable with moving on on their own. Or they NEED to move on, lol.

re: "By the way, is it possible to change my username for both the forum and recovery manager? IÂ’ve realized I want a less identifiable username. I can see how to change my username for the recovery forum."

Sure, just tell me what you want it changed to via PM or the contact us form.

re: "Part of my long term vision is to drink with friends socially at the weekend and stop at that. Is this realistic? Or should I be avoiding alcohol altogether, at least during the recovery phase, as I know it can be a trigger time for me?"

Now, I want to point something out at face value, not to suggest anything. But it is ironic that this would be your first area that you address. I mean, think about it. You are talking about the core values that define you and your life...and the first thing that comes to mind is your ability to be a social drinker? I've only read that before in those who have been in recovery for alcohol (and thus, the rumination that continue to surround alcohol). Now, I am taking you at face value about the alcoholism...but it will be important that you add the compulsive rituals surrounding the binge drinking to what you are doing here in the workshop. Especially when we get to mapping rituals and reactive action plans.

As for you question...I would encourage you to take the next month to not drink alcohol. Don't FORCE yourself to remain abstinent. Simply make the choice not to drink alcohol and see if there are any repercussions in terms of stress, pressure, anxiety, etc. Remember, NO alcohol. If at the end of that month you haven't really even thought about it...then you are likely safe to start drinking again. And what's more, you will have some tools in place to help you with that long-term goal. On the other hand, if you find yourself ruminating about not drinking...trying to make exceptions to allow yourself to drink just a little over this month...or find yourself having to force yourself to not drink--then we need to add this to the recovery process and use it to develop the urge management skills that you will be developing over the next few months.

re: "I want to treat her with the same respect that she treats me with"

This is nitpicking, so bare with me. I would encourage you here to adjust this a bit. What you want to settle on is a clear vision for how you want to treat her--no matter how she treats you. You want your vision to be self-defined and self-controlled. Otherwise, you are setting yourself up for justifying acting out/deception because you no longer feel that she is treating you with the respect that you desire. So, look at the qualities that she displays now..and choose from those qualities the areas you want to develop in your own approach to her. Then take responsibility for adhering to those qualities--no matter what her behavior.

re: "My top 15 values.."

Very good. Excellent mix of practicality and personality.

re: "proactive action plans"

Again, very good. The depth and the specificity are right on the money. Now, recognize that it will not be your role to engage in all of these (along with the other plans' actions) simultaneously. That would be overwhelming and fatalistic. Instead, you simply need to have a clear vision for where you would take these values next should you choose to focus on them.

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Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 1; Day 7
Building Proactive Action Plans II (Work in progress)

Proactive Action Plan: Relaxed attitude to life and others
* Lead a balanced lifestyle e.g. sport/exercise, spiritual practice, relationship, socializing, drinking, hobbies, eating, family, free time, sleep.
* Don't stress about the little things. Accept things as they are.
* Listen and respect other people?s opinions.
* Take time out of schedule to have fun.
* Look for activities that are fun.
* Laugh regularly.
* When under stress or disagreements take a step back, breath, stay relaxed then start again.
* Hang out with friends when I have time.

Proactive Action Plan: Moderation in my actions/controlling my actions
* Lead a balanced lifestyle e.g. sport/exercise, spiritual practice, relationship, socializing, drinking, hobbies, eating, family, free time.
* Don?t spend too much time in one area of my life e.g. work, socializing, computer, porn, sex.
* Learn when to stop e.g. when drinking/porn/being promiscuous.
* Learn more about dealing with extreme thinking.
* Set a limit before engaging in a task. Penalty or something for exceeding???
* Acknowledge that some tasks do take a longer time.


Proactive Action Plan: Feeling content
* Daily affirmations in my head
* Regularly updated my diary with positive things about the day
* Engaging in tasks that are true to my values
* Not taking on too much
* Feel like I?m in control of my life/actions
* Engage in meaningful tasks
* Laugh and have fun often
* Socialize with other friends that are content and happy not those that complain about what?s wrong with their life.


Proactive Action Plan: Sincerity to my partner
* Keeping faithful
* Remaining open our feelings
* Avoid situations of being around other women when she isn?t there (especially when drinking)
* Restrain from flirting when texting other women
* Learn more about urge control
* Keep work life balanced so I don?t feel that I ?need? stress relief
* Honor the wonderful women that she is
* Be aware of what she would go through if she found out

Proactive Action Plan: Communicating feelings
* Keep regular with diary at the end of day, monitor feelings
* Express myself openly to my partner
* Don?t ruminate on things for days
* Realize that some thigs should be kept private and my partner doesn?t want to hear every detail
* Listen carefully to partner expressing herself
* Assist each other in expressing our feelings

Proactive Action Plan: Caring for the environment
* Continue using bike and avoid taxis when possible
* Continue recycling and encouraging others to
* Start recycling scheme in work office
* Continue being vegetarian
* Recycle, reuse, reduce
* Avoid buying unnecessary things
* Use reusable bags at the supermarket
* Save power when possible e.g. turn off lights, computer when not in use, have 1 day a week energy saving day
* Buy products that use less packaging

Proactive Action Plan: Caring for other beings
* Continue being vegetarian
* Promote vegetarianism for ethical and environmental reasons
* Continue using local vegetarian group and organize regular meals
* Don?t preach to others but educate
* Be respectful to all walks of life(people), regardless of background, age, or education
* Give whenever possible


Proactive Action Plan: Being happy and peaceful
* Continue meditation and yoga, both personal and group
* Maintain sense of humor and feeling content action plan
* Keep doing a fulfilling job
* Socialize with friends that make me feel happy
* Do activities that make me feel happy and peaceful
* Avoid activities that make me feel stressed
* Get regular sleep
* Don?t work too much
* Smile
* Start using mantras more often


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Proactive Action Plans:

Excellent. Now, remember that you won't be simultaneously enacting all of these...and so, they don't all need to be developed to perfection before moving forward. You have done enough here to lay a strong foundation for strengthening your value system. Continue to evolve this in the months to come...and especially as you begin to evolve the values themselves.

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Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 2; Day 2
Exercise 9

What if my partner had done the same things as I have done? (we have only been together for a few months)

It may sound strange but a part of me is excited about the idea that my partner could be promiscuous.

I would want to know the details. I would want her to be open and honest with me. I would need reassurance that she loved me and the other people didnÂ’t mean anything to her.


Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 2; Day 3

IV. Make a list of all the places where you have items stashed for sexually compulsive behavior. List these items and their locations in your Recovery Thread.

• 5 naked photos of girlfriend on computer (that she is unaware of) in hidden folder
• 4 locked photos of past women on cell phone (2 photos of 2 different women)
• 1 naked photo of girlfriend on cell phone (She knows about)
• 1 10 second video on phone of naked girlfriend (she doesn’t know about)
• Deleted 2 months ago when starting recovery process ~ various porn movies and photos from computer.
• Still a member of a swinging site that I occasionally visit (haven’t met with anyone since being in this new relationship but still check site).
• 1 ‘art’ movie that has nudity/sex scenes in it, stored on my computer.

V. Make a list of all the people that you use as compulsive sexual and/or romantic object. Post this in your thread.
• Girlfriend with photos she doesn’t know about.
• Older massage (and masturbation) lady that I have seen three times in the last two months.
• The many female University Students that I come into contact with in my area.
• Two specific women students that I fantasize about.
• Most female waitresses/shop attendants.
• Women that I saw before my current partner. Fantasize about them. Two of them I am still in contact with. One of them I slept with recently.
• Peek in the dormitory windows when I’m walking past.
• My teacher (learning a language).
• Random women at bars if I’m out drinking

VI. Make a list of all the places where you go to act out your sexually/romantically compulsive behavior. Post this list in your thread.
• Previously, before recovery, internet porn many times a week: masturbation, fantasizing.
• During work e.g. young women students: fantasizing, voyeur.
• Any place that I come into contact with young women e.g. restaurants/bars: fantasizing, voyeur.
• Various bars if I’m out drinking with friends: picking up women for sex.
• Local massage parlor: massage and masturbation.
• During class (teacher): fantasizing, voyeur.
• Newspaper/internet articles that may contain nudity or talk about sex: fantasizing, voyeur.
• Near my home, peaks in other people’s windows if I’m walking past: voyeur.


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Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 2; Day 5
Exercise:
1. Identify those patterns that you currently recognize in yourself in relation to an unhealthy recovery. Post these observations into your Recovery Thread and/or Recovery Manager.

The following is about behaviour patterns I?ve noticed with my life referring to porn addiction, sex addiction, binge drinking, depression and various other things. They are the main points that struck a chord with me from the workshop readings.

*Quite often, it is the abstinence that can last for many years, with relapse coming in binges, rather than sustained patterns. Though it is also an "on again/off again" recovery pattern, the "on again" is most frequently triggered by their own guilt and shame for returning to the behaviors, rather than being caught engaging in such behavior.
*Susceptible to hyper-religiosity and hyper-recovery.
*They tend to confuse addiction recovery with general mental health issues--creating a hypersensitivity to all of the emotions that they experience. Depression, anxiety, anger--they are all tightly related to "recovery" and an imbalance in one often leads to an imbalance in the other.
*They perceive "powerlessness" not as absolute powerlessness over their life, but a limited powerlessness over their urges.
*They often attempt to convince others of their recovery by offering their "new identity" as proof. Again, most often seen with hyper-religiosity and hyper-recovery situations.
Relapse triggers are feared, and so their lives continue to be altered as a result of addiction.
*They tend to focus on controlling past behavior, rather than learning new behavior.
*They tend to see life in episodes--with beginnings and endings--rather than as a process.
*They consistently measure the success of their recovery through abstinence, rather than emotional stability and personal satisfaction.
*They often experience extreme emotions in relation to acting out--extreme guilt, extreme shame, depression, anger, hatred. Or, they experience very mild emotions--when it has become a pattern that they have resolved to accept as a part of their lives.
*They tend to hyper analyze their actions, thoughts and feelings.


Recovery Workshop: Month 1; Week 2; Day 6
Exercise 13
I. Identify those patterns that you currently recognize in yourself in relation to a healthy recovery. Post these observations into your Recovery Thread and/or Recovery Manager.

The following are the points that I identified with from the workshop readings this is how I view my recovery now.

* They have accepted that they have struggled with certain immoral behaviors that contradicted their values, but realize that what matters is what they are doing, not what they did.
* Their motivation to recover comes from the desire to live a life that they can be proud of, rather than a desire to create the illusion of a life that they can be proud of.
* They are not focused on controlling/ending their past behavioral patterns, but on developing new patterns that will take the place of those related to the addiction.
* Relapse triggers are experienced not as a threat, but an opportunity.
* They tend to have an emotional relapse in terms of the consequences that they have affected on others--especially those closest to them. This frequently triggers true remorse, temporary depression, temporary helplessness--but is soon resolved with a commitment to making it up to people in other, more healthy ways.
* They will take a long, hard look at anything associated with their destructive past, and will voluntarily make the decision to remove these objects from their life. This refers to pornography, internet accounts, etc.


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Having identified these unhealthy and healthy patterns, consider sharing some of this with someone in your life who is supporting your recovery. Ask him or her for feedback about how you might strengthen a healthy approach to recovery. Keep it positive. Don't beat yourself up about doing recovery the "wrong way." Rather, see this as a chance to learn more about how to maximize the success of your recovery.


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