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PostPosted: Thu Jan 26, 2017 11:27 am 
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i did couple of lessons before my account get verified here so i begin with Lesson 4 Exercises:

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Realistic
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30-60 minutes for lessons everyday
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Feeling challenged
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I dont want to use sex. Porn or fantasy in general to escape from Real life in now and this moment
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have easy 30 minute time with my self for myself to see myself not to push or punish
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being freeier from craves(to be richest, to be most accepted . . .)
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Grow spiritually and humanly step by step
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Personal independence
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Physical health
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Create something valuable
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Establishing a partnership w/someone
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Sexual contact
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Feeling unconditional love
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Stay humble after helping others
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Making my first million dollar until 25
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Try to see my cons too
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Help others rationally
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Base my life on evolutions not revolutions even if it look otherwise .
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Strengthening my role as a brother to parsa
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Spend more than my money, my creativity and time to help others too
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Being an inspiration to others in ways that are really useful
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See both rich and poor lifestyles in my hometown
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Make other people deeply happy by my money
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Enhancing my spiritual awareness
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Developing emotional maturity
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Feeling masculine
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Being reliable
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Autonomy: Being in control over the direction of your life
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Adaptability
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Connected to my own feelings
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Feel God
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Being a leader
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World-wide recognition
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Being known as reliable
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Organization
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Financial stability
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Feeling needed, desired, loved by others
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Curiosity
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Fidelity
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Sexual intimacy
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Intellectual growth
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Feeling happy and content
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Open-minded to the beliefs and values of others, tolerance
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Be known as truthful and honest
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Respecting Mother Earth
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Reach my potential. (U)
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Intimacy: Sharing a special trust and vulnerability with another human being
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Experience sex with different personalities and body shapes
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Work on something that will make money for me everyday
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Living with compassion
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Sharing my true self with the world around me
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Showing appreciation towards other
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Developing intellectual depth
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Sexual intimacy
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Feeling sexually desired


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PostPosted: Fri Jan 27, 2017 7:55 am 
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Exercise 5:
Seeing Realistically Not as i Love it to be.
30-60 minutes for lessons everyday
have easy 30 minute time with my self for myself to see myself not to push or punish
Being freeier from craves(to be richest, to be most accepted . . .)
Grow from inside step by step
Personal independence
Physical health
Create Or Develop something or idea that i found valuable (for me and others)
Establishing a partnership w/someone
Sexual contact
Feeling unconditional love
Developing Rational Morality inside(list in another sheet)
Work on something that will make money for me.
Help others rationally
Base my life on evolutions not revolutions even if it look otherwise.(Not Fooling myself by searching months and months for magic


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PostPosted: Sat Jan 28, 2017 11:28 am 
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Hi and welcome to RN
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i did couple of lessons before my account get verified here so i begin with Lesson 4 Exercises:

so why not post them?
here you will get the chance to refer back as you go and you will feel the need to refer back in particular to your vision and your reasons for wanting change
these are the cornerstones of the foundation of recovery
good luck
I tell you it is not easy but my God it is worth it

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Remember recovery is more than abstinence
Every transition begins with an ending
Do not confuse happiness with seeking pleasure
stay healthy keep safe
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PostPosted: Sat Jan 28, 2017 2:10 pm 
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Wrote them on paper, i may type them later :)


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PostPosted: Sat Jan 28, 2017 2:13 pm 
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Lesson Six exercise:
30-60 minutes for lessons everyday


Read Lectures Each day.
-Focus more intensely On Examples If professor is Same As yours.
-Don’t Fall in i want to know everything about this category or Season Trap.
-Put more time on those calsses which are common with the One.
-Second priority for those which will intimate you at the end or those you think you dont understand (dont just postpone them).

have easy 30 minute time with myself for myself to see myself not to push or punish

-Don't expect to have clear mind right after beginning the session.
-It's about slowing down Not Stopping Crave for Data brain function during 30 minute, slowing Down thinking fast and trying to process more data (useless Data) and get more to stimulate brain more and more,Slowing Down desire to skip from reality, to live in mind instead of real world.
-Stop Internet Connection on All devices, if not possible Stop never ending data sources like Social media’s, Video Services etc.
-It's good to think by myself based of facts and probabilities instead of looking for final solutions from outside.
-Do it mornings if Awake.

Work on something that will make money for me

********* Area.
-Gather information About What others have Done Before you, Don't reinvent The wheel.
-Look for **** Files for ready to use **** templates.
-Look for free and then paid music and **** matching with ****.
-Look for ready to use ****** to use instead of ***** them from beginning.

Pay for Ads, at first Cheaper = Better.

Tomorrow hopefully im going to finish first 7 lessons, they were really intense, specially because i wasn't in euphoria phase when i began.


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PostPosted: Sun Jan 29, 2017 6:54 am 
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Lesson 10 :
IV. Make a list of all the places where you have items stashed for sexually compulsive behavior. List these items and their locations in your Recovery Thread. If you are uncomfortable sharing this in the forum, email or PM the list to a Coach.


this may not look like something relevant but for me it is.
I have lots of different types of condoms in an old briefcase i can lock with key and pass code.
similar to this: http://shop.vipbags.com/briefcase/bt-br ... -1488.html

list of porn websites and Tumblr blogs i use (its in my mind).
blogs are more about amateur pics and i do have a list of blogs of actual people with certain type of sexual lifestyle.
im very ashamed of sharing what they are and not ready to share them, also im not type of guy who wants to try them in real life and never tried them in real life.


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PostPosted: Mon Jan 30, 2017 12:44 pm 
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Lesson 12:

For me "on again" phase is mostly created by my own guilt, shame and urge to change something in life.

also this parts are true about me :

They believe that they are suffering from a disease that is beyond their control, but not beyond all hope.
well i do hope one day i would be able to beat this addiction, after starting this workshop, slowly i think i should grow out of addiction instead of beating it.

They believe that they are defective in the sense that their emotions, urges, impulses, etc. are experienced with much more intensity than "normal people". And this puts them at a disadvantage for living a "normal life".
dont we feel more intense urges and emotions during withdrawal ?

They tend to confuse addiction recovery with general mental health issues — creating a hypersensitivity to all of the emotions that they experience. Depression, anxiety, anger — they are all tightly related to "recovery" and an imbalance in one often leads to an imbalance in the other.
its quite common for me to not know the emotion im feeling during emotional rollercoaster is real or a chemical imbalance in brain.

They often attempt to convince others of their recovery by offering their "new identity" as proof. Again, most often seen with hyper-religiosity and hyper-recovery situations.

i dont try to convince others because its me who i want to change, single twenty something guy(its not a bad thing in my culture) who tells his friends about porn addiction but i found myself trying to convince others about new things i want to try or new amazing things and ideas i found.(again this workshop is changing me, because im less likely trying to run out of myself by fantasy)

Relapse triggers are feared, and so their lives continue to be altered as a result of addiction.

i feel more and more safe but always heard that you should keep away from triggers.

They tend to focus on controlling past behavior, rather than learning new behavior.


They tend to see life in episodes — with beginnings and endings — rather than as a process.



They consistently measure the success of their recovery through abstinence, rather than emotional stability and personal satisfaction.
how many days i've been in ?
one week, hmm, good
two weeks nice to remember
40 days : remarkable
90 days : i won

They often experience extreme emotions in relation to acting out — extreme guilt, extreme shame, depression, anger, hatred. Or, they experience very mild emotions — when it has become a pattern that they have resolved to accept as a part of their lives.


and feeling empty

They tend to hyper analyze their actions, thoughts and feelings...and make the possibility of living a "normal" life all but impossible.


They continue to identify themselves with their addiction and cannot imagine a life without such an association.

i've been this, but recently understood to change my view.

Capable of achieving anything they set their minds to...though unsure of what it is they will eventually settle their minds on.
Me, Me and again me


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PostPosted: Tue Jan 31, 2017 8:37 am 
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Lesson 13 :
I. Identify those patterns that you currently recognize in yourself in relation to a healthy recovery. Post these observations into your Recovery Thread and/or Recovery Manager.

Early Recovery: "Understanding/Recognizing the Behavior"


In early recovery, individuals often experience significant doubts relating to their ability to change.


In early recovery, extremely negative emotions are the norm: especially as they relate to depression, anxiety, hopelessness and suicide.


In early recovery, they tend to experience relief in having their behaviors understood, and immediately seek understanding in all areas of their life. Unfortunately, this tends to overwhelm them, distract them, etc., but it is fairly common...and a good sign that their desire to change is sincere.


In early recovery, they perceive "powerlessness" as "helplessness" and "desperation".


In early recovery, significant others tend to experience these individuals as very needy, pathetic, "lost souls".

i consider myself as needy to, as i do think needy and sometimes act needy.

Middle Recovery : "Actual Recovery"
after a while in those streaks

They have accepted that they have struggled with certain immoral behaviors that contradicted their values, but realize that what matters is what they are doing, not what they did. They realize that no successful recovery ever took place by changing the past, only by changing the present.


Their motivation to recover comes from the desire to live a life that they can be proud of, rather than a desire to create the illusion of a life that they can be proud of.

i get more realistic about life, i dont see success as only orgasmic success.

Relapse triggers are experienced not as a threat, but an opportunity.

yes but after that i do have urge to make more opportunities, i mean i say lets see more explicit content and then stop from there and rewire brain for those conditions too (its rationalizing i know).

They see their lives as a continuous process of growth and development, rather than an episodic book of starts and stops. (e.g. "When I was addicted" "After I recovered").
Hmm, maybe.

They will take a long, hard look at anything associated with their destructive past, and will voluntarily make the decision to remove these objects from their life. This refers to pornography, internet accounts, etc. It does not necessarily refer to affairs where real feelings were experienced/exchanged.


They tend to have an emotional relapse in terms of the consequences that they have effected on others — especially those closest to them. This frequently triggers true remorse, temporary depression, temporary helplessness — but is soon resolved with a commitment to making it up to people in other, more healthy ways.

i feel deep sadness when i think how i treated my brother.

Late Recovery : "From Recovery to Health"

None of them


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PostPosted: Tue Jan 31, 2017 8:42 am 
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II. Consider the values that surround both your healthy and unhealthy patterns. Are they consistent with your current prioritized values? If yes, wonderful. If not, how might this awareness alter how you are currently perceiving/managing your recovery? Share your thoughts in the community forum.

May you give me an example of how to do this ?

actually i made a list of values causing harm (relapse and forcing addiction)


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PostPosted: Wed Feb 01, 2017 7:11 pm 
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Im going to do some of or all of early lesson's exercise again


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PostPosted: Thu Feb 02, 2017 3:53 am 
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Lesson 1:
A)
1-I don't know what actively stands for here, its been more than 3-4 years that i want to change this addiction, to be honest i also had areas that i just didn't wanted to look deep in, i wanted to abstain and actually i had no good resource to help me have an active recovery.

2-I try to forget but struggle to forgive without forgetting. When couple of days pasts after my relapse, the proud stops feeling guilty but feeling empty and disappointment always shoots me to the beginning.

3-Opened 3 months for change, hope it works.


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PostPosted: Thu Feb 02, 2017 6:47 am 
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Lesson 13 :

Did i lived my life with a sense of purpose today ? (purpose can be achieved from working on values )



Did i used Prayer as a functional tool in my life today ?



How would i describe my emotional stability throughout the day ?



Was i active in my approach to recovery skills today ? and if not how many days has it been ?



Did i engaged in any healthy activity that allowed me to relax and escape from pressures of life? if not how many days has it been ?



Did i drive consciously seek to drive fulfillment today from staying in the moment ?



Did i used any deception today in order to avoid or responsibility for my life choices actions, etc ?




Did i learned new information from my printed lectures and got closer to final success ?



Did i gained health today by doing stretch, HIIT or walking on treadmill ?




How would i describe my effort to gain financial independence by looking for (******), ***** or learning new stuff?
(nothing, looking for idealistic things, practical gain, etc)


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PostPosted: Thu Feb 02, 2017 6:49 am 
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lesson 15:
the most important thing i learned is that recovery is an active process and you can not recover with just sitting and waiting to time pass. practically i worked on workshop did exercises and sometimes changes my previous exercises.


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PostPosted: Thu Feb 02, 2017 10:03 am 
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lesson 16)
Sometimes thinking a life without using porn looks super scary, specially when i used hardly for couple of days or when i used intense porn.
otherwise when im in a streak life without porn challenge looks empty, i keep myself motivated with benefits of not watching porn for a while but actually i dont know how to live life without it in long run, i just hope something magical will happen by reading other people's motivational post doing some proactive things but finally, its needed to simulate brain. i dont mean i need it like before i dont crave hard core porn after a 40 days streak but sometimes some revealing images are needed. i didn't got after 90 days and dont know what would happen after that but i dont think much change without root changes


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PostPosted: Sun Feb 12, 2017 5:41 pm 
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Lesson 22:
Visual sensory 3
T:10
I:6
H:4

Orgasm :3
T:2
I:10
H:1

Touch sensory 2
T:6
I:6
H:0

Result (20*3 + 13*3 + 12*2)/3=123/3=41


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