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PostPosted: Mon Oct 09, 2017 3:46 pm 
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Lesson 1 Excersizes

Three keys to establishing a successful foundation for permanent change in early recovery:

1) actively committing myself to change:
I realize that my efforts to quit my addiction up to this point have been fueled by the wrong motivation. I wanted to change for other people. My ex wife, my kids, God, my church. I wanted to change to keep my clean image to the outside world intact. But deep down I did not want to change so my commitment was false. The only difference this time is that my commitment is to me. I realize that I will never know what a healthy life, a good life is like if I dont change. I will always have this cheap excuse of a life. Never know real love, never know intimacy, never care for others in a healthy relationship. I became addicted for a reason and that reason is keeping me trapped. I owe it to myself, first, to find that reason and eliminate it and finally find out who I am outside of this addiction. Who the kind, loving, caring, generous, successful man is I tell myself I am, but deep inside know I'm not. I am eager to meet this guy. I am committed to meeting this guy. I WILL be this guy and not the man that I have become.

2) not allowing guilt/shame to sabotage your commitment to change:
One time my daughter caught me watching porn. She eventually confronted me and as usual I lied about what she saw and tried to downplay it. She's smart though and I had to come clean to her. That was the lowest point I have ever reached. I felt dirty, ashamed, guilty and a complete faillure as a father. I am motivated to one day say to here that her dad is no longer addicted to sex and mean it! I will not let my guilt or shame stop me. For me, that guilt and shame is fuel and motivation to never have to go through that again. Every one I love knows what I am. For all I know they loath and despise what I am. Guilt and shame will not stop me. They lied to me. They said I was not hurting anyone. I was! firstly myself and those I love. Their counsel was false. I will not let them dictate my decisions anymore.

3) allowing yourself time to change:
I have been addicted since I was 11 years old. I have tried to change many times and failed many times. To have something like a sex addiction be part of you for so long means it will not go away over night. I realize that and I expect my recovery to take as long as it should take. No fast track, no shortcuts. Commitment to change for as long as it takes. I want my change to be permanent. Anything worth doing is worth doing right!

Reasons why I seek permanent change:

1:I want to stop lying to myself and those I love
2: I want to build meaningful relationships with others
3: I want to value women instead of seeing them like pieces of flesh
4: I want to be in charge of my thought life
5: I want to be in a loving romantic relationship with one person and not lust after other women
6: When I meet a woman I don't want her body to dictate whether she is someone I like or not
7: I want to know here I can go and what I can be if sex is not my main motivator and driver.
8: I want to be happy
9: I want to wake up and go to bed without HAVING to masturbate
10: I want to stop hurting women
11: I want to stop having sex without an emotional connection
12: I want to help and motivate others like me to become free as well
13: I want to undo what was done to me when I was a child
14: I want to be proud of myself and have my kids be proud of me
15: I want to be succesful

Seeing my addiction through the scope of my lifespan

I looked at a picture of myself at about 3 or 4 years old. I remember being curious, full of imagination and hope. I remember thinking that I would accomplish great things. I remember being happy at times and innocent to all the hurt that would come my way. Looking at the picture I wanted to warn myself. Tell myself to run away. Away from that place. From that family. I wanted to hug myself and say to myself that I was loved and appreciated just as I am. That I am not fat. Not a faillure. That I am loved and wanted. My eyes look so clear. there is no hurt in them yet. I want to tell myself to keep it that way. To defend that at all cost. I want to tell myself never to take that dirty book from that boy in my class some 6 years later. That it will destroy my happiness, my marriage. But most of all I want to love that little boy. To care for him, encourage him. Be kind and gentle to him and make sure he grows up without a care in the world. To make sure he does not carry any burdens the adults in his life should carry. That he is too young for. That boy is still inside me somewhere. I have to find him. Revive him. And make sure he gets what he is owed. A normal live. Free of the hurt done to him, or at least the effects of that hurt. I am that boy. I will find me. I will heal me. I will love me. I will be better!


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PostPosted: Wed Oct 11, 2017 8:25 am 
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Hello Sappakkarra
firstly please hit the reply key not the new topic key when posting in your thread
that way is stays as one thread making it easy to refer back as you move forwards

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I realize that my efforts to quit my addiction up to this point have been fueled by the wrong motivation. I wanted to change for other people. My ex wife, my kids, God, my church. I wanted to change to keep my clean image to the outside world intact. But deep down I did not want to change so my commitment was false. The only difference this time is that my commitment is to me
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great candour now you can start your journey for real
so
welcome to RN
if you really do want to improve your life and to recover from your addiction then you are at a good place to make that wish reality
Commit , fully and completely
work through the lessons and understand them , if you miss something ask on the help forum , assistance is always on hand
coaches and mentors are likely to drop by occasionally but if not, don't worry as this is generally a good indicator that you are on the right path

the path is long and difficult but it is well proven and you are not alone
we usually suggest completing about 3 lessons a week but spending time every day posting and reading
get to know your addiction and see yourself with honesty and openness

remember to work at your own pace and its not a race indeed some consider recovery to be a journey rather than a destination


remember the only person that can make these changes is you, so the hard work needs to come from you
looking forwards to reading your posts and wishing you all the best

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Every transition begins with an ending
Do not confuse happiness with seeking pleasure
stay healthy keep safe
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 Post subject: Lesson 2 Excercises
PostPosted: Thu Oct 12, 2017 2:06 am 
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This lesson really hit home. Reading through it I kept thinking "this is exactly how I think and feel". I was off today so I went for a bike ride. Being in nature stimulates my thinking. I painted a picture of who I am or better yet, who I want to be and derived my vision from that. I'd like to write this out exactly that way.

Who am I, what moves me, what do I love:
There are various layers to me. This often made me think that I was abnormal as most of my friends appeared simpler than I am. Recently I have learned to embrace how I'm wired. The positive things that is, not the addiction.
I am a Christian. I love God and I believe I have salvation through him. Serving him and his church are important to me and plays an important part in my life.
I am a father. I love my kids very much. because of my addiction I have not been a good father. But I want to be one. I want my kids to be the best they can be and support them in that. I want to be there for them and play an active role in their lives. I want to know them deeply.
I love music. In many ways music is like my first language. When I can't articulate something with words there is always a song that makes me go: This is what I mean!. I play acoustic bass and bass guitar which are very important to me. I want to become the best bass player I can be. I also enjoy discovering new music. Looking up artists, going to festivals and concerts even though I don't know the bands. This is probably what I enjoy to do most and I easily connect with people who share the same interest.
I love knowledge. Anything that allows me to learn something or that teaches me a new skill, I absorb like a sponge. This manifests itself in reading books, studying for job advancement, travelling frequently to new places and actively seeking to know the history and culture of them, frequently visiting museums, being interested in philosophy, watching documentaries etc. Anything that lacks depth will not keep my attention for long. This includes people.
I love excersise. I always played sports and I enjoy it. Going to the gym and riding my bike are important to me. Apart from the joy it brings and the health benefits I also like to be fit and look good.
I want to add value. Obviously to my family but also to my employer and the community. Helping others gives me a sense of purpose. It gives me fulfilment. I have to be careful with this as people have taken advantage of me in the past due to this desire.
I love nature. Being outdoors makes me happy. Long walks, bike rides or drives make me happy. It doesn't matter where, as long as it is outside.
I love water. Anything that has to do with boating interests me. After my loved ones and people in general I love my boat most of everything I own.

From the above I came to the following vision for my life:
I want to be devoted to God in response to his love for me. Not out of obligation, but from the gratitude that I have because of his grace. I want to please him with my life in any way I can. I want to know that he is proud of me. I want to be devoted to my children. I want to be the best father I can be and love them unconditionally. When I am gone I want them to say, from the bottom of their hearts, that they had the best father ever and that my love sustained them through life. I want to intimately know them and I want them to know me. I want to be the best musician I can be, devote time and energy to perfecting my craft and enjoy expressing myself through music, by myself and with others. I want to keep learning. Stay curious about the earth and it's inhabitants and gain an ever deepening respect for Gods creation. I want to pass that knowledge on to others, mainly my children. I want to help people. Be an avid volunteer in various projects and add value to my community. Love people just because, not to receive a reward. I want to be fit, spend time on the water and outdoors as much as I can and enjoy my life to the fullest.
Lastly, I want to meet someone and fall madly in love with her. I want to share the depths of my being with her, without shame and have her do the same with me. I want to adventurously discover life with her and have a bond second only to my bond with God. I want her to know she is loved, that she comes first and I want her to be happy that she chose me every day. I have lots of love to give and one day I will, to the right person.


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 Post subject: Lesson 3 My Values
PostPosted: Thu Oct 12, 2017 2:07 am 
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I live with integrity, i am the same person internally as well as externally
I have compassion for others
I am a christian (U)
I pray and read my bible every morning (P)
I am active in my church (P)
I educate myself regarding my faith using books etc. (P)
I am a good father (U)
I provide form y children (P)
I educate my children regarding life skills (P)
I make an effort to know my children and have them know me (P)
I protect my children (P)
I work hard tob e able to leave them an inherritance (P)
I value music (U)
I study my instruments (P)
I listen to lots of music (P)
I go to concerts and festivals as much as I can (P)
I write songs (P)
I actively seek to discover new music (P)
I make music with others (P)
I value Knowledge (U)
I read books (P)
I travel to explore new cities and cultires (P)
I visit museums (P)
I watch documentary’s (P)
I engage in meaningful discussions with others (P)
I study art (P)
I pass my knowledge on to others (P)
I value helping others (U)
I volunteer as much as possible (P)
I value being fit (U)
I excersise 4 times a weak (P)
I educate myself on nutrition (P)
I eat healthy (P)
I value nature (U)
I spend time outdoord (P)
I ride my bike through the country (P)
I take my boat out a lot (P)
I care about the environment (U)
I educate myself on climate change (P)
I recycle (P)
I use less energy and water (P)
I consume less (P)
I use public transportation whenever possible (P)
I value social justice (U)
I donate to organisations that promote social justice (P)
My volunteer work is focussed on social justice (P)
I value a deep and intimate relationship with one woman (U)
I make an effort to spend quality time with her every day (P)
I am interested in what makes her unique (P)
I add value to her life (P)
I support her goals and ambitions (P)
Our life is a healthy mix of both our values and interests (P)
I am intimate with her bothe physically, emotionally and mentaly (P)
I speak positively of her to others (P)
I show her all of who I a mand hold nothing back (P)
I improve myself tob e a better husband every day (P)
I strehnthen my role as a brother to my sister (U)
I make an effort to spend time with her (P)
I call her often to see how she is doing (P)
I provide my best to my employer (U)
I am punctual when it comes to work (P)
I give a full 8 hours every day (P)
I better my skills through learning (P)
I take the initiative to improve the company (P)
I am self diciplined


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PostPosted: Thu Oct 12, 2017 2:42 am 
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I live with integrity, I am the same person internally as well as externally
I am a christian
I am a good father
I value a deep and intimate relationship with one woman
I value Knowledge
I value music
I value being fit
I am self disciplined
I value helping others
I value nature
I care about the environment
I have compassion for others
I provide form my children
I make an effort to spend quality time with her every day
I provide my best to my employer
I protect my children
I make an effort to know my children and have them know me
I educate my children regarding life skills
I add value to her life
I support her goals and ambitions
I am interested in what makes her unique
Our life is a healthy mix of both our values and interests
I am intimate with her both physically, emotionally and mentally
I speak positively of her to others
I show her all of who I am and hold nothing back
I improve myself to be a better husband every day
I strengthen my role as a brother to my sister
I make an effort to spend time with her
I call her often to see how she is doing
I give a full 8 hours every day
I actively seek to discover new music
I travel to explore new cities and cultures
I consume less
I work hard to be able to leave them an inheritance
pray and read my bible every morning
I am active in my church
I educate myself regarding my faith using books etc.
study my instruments
I listen to lots of music
I go to concerts and festivals as much as I can
I write songs
make music with others
I read books
visit museums
I watch documentary’s
I engage in meaningful discussions with others
I study art
I pass my knowledge on to others
I volunteer as much as possible
I excersise 4 times a weak
I educate myself on nutrition
I eat healthy
I spend time outdoors
I ride my bike through the country
I take my boat out a lot
I educate myself on climate change
I recycle
I use less energy and water
I use public transportation whenever possible
I donate to organisations that promote social justice
My volunteer work is focussed on social justice


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PostPosted: Fri Oct 13, 2017 1:29 am 
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I live with integrity, I am the same person internally as well as externally
I am a christian
I am a good father
I value a deep and intimate relationship with one woman
I value Knowledge
I value music
I value being fit
I am self disciplined
I value helping others
I value nature
I care about the environment
I have compassion for others
I provide form my children
I make an effort to spend quality time with her every day
I provide my best to my employer


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PostPosted: Mon Oct 16, 2017 2:05 am 
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For my first action plans i choose the following values: I value being fit and I value music. I choose these two because they come natural to me and are a little easier than the other ones. I have a general idea of what those plans should look like and with some of my other values it's a little harder. So here we go:

I value being fit:
• I excersise (gym/bike) at least 3 times a week but ideally at least 4 times.
• I chane my gym schedule every six weeks.
• I take the sessions seriously and monitor my progress.
• I plan my week ahead and schedule exercise in with other reaponsibilities.
• I plan bike rides ahead .
• I make sure I go to bed on time. Rest is important and prevents fatigue which leads to missing sessions.
• I plan my meals ahead to avoid eating unhealthy in haste.
• I have healthy snacks available to counter unhealthy cravings.

I value music:
• I spend at least an hour a day practising.
• I practice according to a prepared schedule.
• I make a weekly practise session schedule and stick to it.
• I listen to music that aides my development.
• I have a lesson every other week and I don’t miss any lessons.
• I go to lessons prepared.
• I don’t flip if I can’t practice due to situations I can’t change. This is counter productive.
• I go to concerts whenever I can especially if I can learn something.


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 Post subject: Lesson 10 Excersizes
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List of items stashed for sexual compulsive behavior:
• Pictures (some nude) of women I currently have or had an affair with or fantisize about in a secure photo app on my phone.
• Locations of my favourite porn sites ingrained in my memory.
• Application to search for new porn material on my laptop.
• Facebook and instagram fo women I fantasize about.
• List of all women I have slept with on iphone.

List of all the people I use as compulsive sexual and/or romantic object:
• Mirjam, Ramona, Elja, Suzanne, Janna: Current casual sex relationship.
• Women I have slept with: Fantasize over and masturbate.
• Strange women: Approach via facebook and dating apps and sites in hope of casual sex.

Places where I go to act out your sexually/romantically compulsive behavior:
• Internet: Download and search for porn.
• Internet: join apss and sites for new women for casual seks.
• Women’s homes: For sex.
• My home: Invite women over for seks.


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PostPosted: Thu Oct 19, 2017 8:28 am 
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Hello S
I suggest that you burn your book and delete all from your computer and phone
wipe the slate clean

remind yourself of why you are here
do it for you
what do you have to lose
what will you get in return

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Do not confuse happiness with seeking pleasure
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The submit button is not available for this so I made a pdf of it. The site does not allow me to upload that. Can't think of another way to share it here.


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Reading through this section I identify most with the fourth group regarding the patterns explained. I also identify most with the group that will occasionally relapse based on the descriptions given. I must admit I was a bit discouraged when I was done reading this lesson. A "this is hopeless" feeling got a hold of me. I realise though that recognising this will help me not to go down that road myself. I decided to keep my motivation up, be honest, and continue. I did not have the best of weeks so that also plays a part in how I feel right now. Feeling like a failure, depression, sadness, low self esteem, uncertainty about my professional future, thinking I will never have an intimate relationship again, these thoughts were all present in abundance this week. I also relapsed by watching porn and masturbating for the first time since starting the workshop which adds to feeling like a failure. I do know that I am not a failure and recommit to this process today. I read through my values and did this lesson. I will succeed! I missed the Day seven instruction to read my values in during urges. I will apply that from now on. I made a copy of them on my phone so I have them handy when needed. At the instruction of my coach I deleted the list of women I slept with from my phone also. Replacing a negative list with a positive one. That felt good! Here are the unhealthy recovery patterns I identified with from the lesson:
Even though, I don't identify mostly with the on again off again group, I did in the past when I wanted to recover due to external pressure. Some of the feelings are still with me. I do still think that I have suffered so much from my behaviour that reaching my lifetime goals will be hard, if not impossible and that this life is my fate. I often attempt to "prove" my sincerity to others through voicing dreams, sharing words and making promises, rather than through my actions. I did find more in common with the group that occasionally relapses which is also my experience. In tha past my relapses lasted for months. They now last for a few days to a week. these are the patterns I experience:
I believe that I am suffering from a disease that is beyond my control, but not beyond all hope.
I believe that I am defective in the sense that my emotions, urges, impulses, etc. are experienced with much more intensity than "normal people". And this puts me at a disadvantage for living a "normal life".
I perceive "powerlessness" not as absolute powerlessness over my life, but a limited powerlessness over my urges.
Relapse triggers are feared, and so my life continues to be altered as a result of addiction. I know I cannot avoid triggers because it would mean not seeing a woman ever again as some women trigger a relapse and some don't. I don't know why.
I tend to focus on controlling past behaviour, rather than learning new behaviour.
I tend to see life in episodes — with beginnings and endings — rather than as a process. I view recovery this way as well.
I consistently measure the success of my recovery through abstinence, rather than emotional stability and personal satisfaction.
I often experience extreme emotions in relation to acting out — extreme guilt, extreme shame, depression, anger, hatred.
I tend to hyper analyse their actions, thoughts and feelings...and make the possibility of living a "normal" life all but impossible.
I continue to identify myself with my addiction and cannot imagine a life without such an association.
When I was married I could never have sex without envisioning my wife and me in a scene I had seen in porn. It is difficult for me to imagine having a healthy relationship with someone without these thoughts even though I want that badly.
I push myself in other areas in life in an unhealthy way thinking that my excellence in those area's will lessen the impact of my addiction.
I cannot, no matter how hard I try, imagine an addiction free life. I want to as it would be something to live for. I don't know if this is unhealthy. It's just something I would like to be able to do.
With every relapse I feel like i'm back to square one. I know it's not true but I feel that way and it makes getting back on track hard.


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PostPosted: Sat Oct 21, 2017 6:46 am 
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Hello Sappa

Quote:
I push myself in other areas in life in an unhealthy way thinking that my excellence in those area's will lessen the impact of my addiction.


but you know it wont, please face and deal with that reality

Quote:
I cannot, no matter how hard I try, imagine an addiction free life.


why not?
in doing what you are doing you are simply protecting your addiction and believe me addiction does no favours


Quote:
With every relapse I feel like i'm back to square one. I know it's not true but I feel that way and it makes getting back on track hard.

then you are not analysing your relapses / slips
think about why you allow them
what brings them about and what you can do to manage your urges
good luck

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 Post subject: Lesson 13 Exersises
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Of the early recovery patterns I recognise these in my own situation:
In early recovery, individuals often experience significant doubts relating to their ability to change.
In early recovery, extremely negative emotions are the norm: especially as they relate to depression, anxiety, hopelessness and suicide

Of the middle recovery patterns, I recognise these:
They have accepted that they have struggled with certain immoral behaviors that contradicted their values, but realize that what matters is what they are doing, not what they did. They realize that no successful recovery ever took place by changing the past, only by changing the present.
Their motivation to recover comes from the desire to live a life that they can be proud of, rather than a desire to create the illusion of a life that they can be proud of.
They will take a long, hard look at anything associated with their destructive past, and will voluntarily make the decision to remove these objects from their life. This refers to pornography, internet accounts, etc. It does not necessarily refer to affairs where real feelings were experienced/exchanged.
They tend to have an emotional relapse in terms of the consequences that they have effected on others — especially those closest to them. This frequently triggers true remorse, temporary depression, temporary helplessness — but is soon resolved with a commitment to making it up to people in other, more healthy ways.

I am optimistic after doing this exercise. Because I just recognise 2 patterns of the early recovery stage. This gives me hope as my efforts seem to be working. The hopelessness is still there sometimes because I have tried many times on my own and failed miserably. I do understand why I failed and that is what is different. I am not trying to stop acting out anymore by just stopping. When I did that I felt empty. Now I am replacing unhealthy behaviour with healthy behaviour so the void is filled. The doubts are still there but they are not constant anymore. They come and go.
I am proud that I have gotten rid of my "stashes". My black book is gone. My pictures are gone. I don't reach out to the people from my past anymore. So far that has gone well. When my coach said I should do so I was scared. I thought it was too soon and that I would crash. It amazed me how easy it was and I enjoy the liberating feeling it gives me. I also have a desire to be proud of my life. Not ashamed anymore of who I know that I was inside. I do struggle with remorse more than I used to. Especially towards my ex wife and daughter. My marriage is over and to be honest, I am convinced it would still be over if I had not been an addict. That said however, my ex did not deserve the pain and humiliation I caused her. For that I am truly sorry and if I ever have the chance I will tell her so. I hope to mend my relationship with my daughter one day. I miss her enormously. I am happy though that I can use the meantime to change so when that day comes she will have a healthy dad instead of the guy that hurt her.


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 Post subject: Lesson 7 action plans
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I live with integrity, I am the same person internally as well as externally:
• Examine my life regularly to identify area’s where I am dishonest with myself or others.
• Reflect on my day every evening to assess my performance in tis area.
• When I have lied, apologize to the victim and set the record straight.
• Be honest always, especially in situations where I am tempted to do things I dont really want in order top lease people. This usuallly leads to dishonesty later. When unsure, I dont answe immediately but take a pause to examine how I feel.
• Review my values at least once a week to keep on track.
• Keep a journal and write in it, ideally every evening , writing about my journey in this area.

I am a christian
• Start every day with prayer and scripture.
• Consult God during the day regarding challenges in my life.
• Be diligent in church activities
• Teach my kids about God, pray, and worship together.
• Educate myself regarding christian principles through books and teachings.

I am a good father
• I spend quality time with my kids at least twice a week.
• In the morning I always get up to greet them and pray with them even though I may be off.
• I educate them regarding life issues.
• I help them with their homework and encourage the mto do well.
• I put money aside fort heir future.

I value Knowledge
• I read books. I aim to read one a month. I always have one with me on the train to work.
• I visit museums.
• I join art classes focussing on art history.
• For entertainment I watch documentaries.
• I study form y masters degree.

I value music:
• I spend at least an hour a day practising.
• I practice according to a prepared schedule.
• I make a weekly practise session schedule and stick to it.
• I listen to music that aides my development.
• I have a lesson every other week and I don’t miss any lessons.
• I go to lessons prepared.
• I don’t flip if I can’t practice due to situations I can’t change. This is counter productive.
• I go to concerts whenever I can especially if I can learn something.

I value being fit:
• I excersise (gym/bike) at least 3 times a week but ideally at least 4 times.
• I chane my gym schedule every six weeks.
• I take the sessions seriously and monitor my progress.
• I plan my week ahead and schedule exercise in with other reaponsibilities.
• I plan bike rides ahead .
• I make sure I go to bed on time. Rest is important and prevents fatigue which leads to missing sessions.
• I plan my meals ahead to avoid eating unhealthy in haste.
• I have healthy snacks available to counter unhealthy cravings.

I am self disciplined
• I follow through on what I set out to do.
• I have a to do list for each day.
• I push myself towards my goals even when getting there is mundaine.

I value helping others
• I volunteer regularly.
• I donate to charity.

I value nature
• I spend time outdoors
• I recycle
• I keep my surroundings clean

I care about the environment
• I minimize my carbon footprint
• I eat less meat
• I walk more and drive less
• I use public transportation whenever possible

I provide my best to my employer
• I get to work on time
• I give my best for 8 full hours
• I over deliver
• I keep educating myself to improve my performance


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PostPosted: Tue Oct 24, 2017 2:32 am 
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These are the area's I want to focus on the coming 4 weeks in health monitoring. I start today and will reflect 5 minutes before going to bed every day.

Daily monitoring list

1. Was I thruthful to myself and to others today, did I live with integrity.
• Did I compromise my feelings to please others.
• Did I lie to safe face in any way.
• Did I make excuses for my own behavior.

2. Did I honour God with my life today.
• Did I spend time in the word.
• Did I pray.
• Was I spiritualy connected to him in thought.
• Did I experience joy from my relationship with him.

3. Did I have a meaningful conversation with my kids today.

4. Did I let my kids know that I love them in word and in deed. Was I affectionate towards them.

5. Was I consiously living healthy today. Did I excersise and/or eat healthy.

6. Was I self diciplined today.
• Did I follow my to do list, if not why.
• Was the list realistic or did I push myself too hard.
• Did I derrive value from what I accomplished today.
• Am I prowd of what I achieved today.

7. Did I learn anything today, either from a book, an article, museum visit etc. And did I derrive value from what I learned.

8. Did I help anyone today. Was I actively seeking opportunities to do so.

9. Was I active with music today. Did I spend time enjoying it, improving my skills or otherwise.

10. Did I give my best at work today. Did I actively pursue becoming a better employee.

11. Did I care form my sister today. Did I reach out to her in any way.

12. Did I enjoy nature today. Did I spend time outside or have I taken a few minutes just to enjoy my surroundings.

13. Did I act out today. If so why. What triggered it and what can I do to handle it differently next time.


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