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PostPosted: Sun Nov 29, 2020 4:20 am 

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Hello Soze,
From me to you (I'm soze and im just actually talking to myself as i lead myself from this addiction).
I'm so sorry that you've had to go through what you've been through for mistakes that you did not cause. From childhood you've relied on yourself to teach yourself about the world; without practical role models though you were born to a 'stable family' with 2 parents. We know that dad though well meaningvor out of ignorance didn't impact you with the skills needed to thrive in the world, to be a man.. You were brought up a sad, skinny abeit sickly kid, without self love, confidence, courage and constantly made to see the lack in the world and suffering so much psychologically for mistakes that were not yours.. Mum too wasn't much help, from dressing you in clothes that made me you a laughing stock of your peers to talking up adult responsibilities and being a emotional dump for her when she kept pilling on her disappointments about my father to my young uncomprehending brain making me distrust and look down on the male figure on my life.. My brother too wasn't much help.. So here i am, an adult(25yrs old) with no life management skills and deep into porn addiction that clings so tightly to me..
But ill not always be here, moving forward i must change and grow into a person I'm proud of.. And it all starts with a vision for my life:
Firstly i no longer want to be skinny and sickly anymore. I want to feel like a man, look like a man so starting tomorrow I'm going back to gym to compund lift as hell till i grow into the man i wanna be. Along with this, I'll include adequate rest, 8 hrs sleep, and good nutrition.
I have been extremely sloppy before so starting tomorrow, I'll try to take care of my personal appearance more by not dressing like a slob all the time.
I'll update more..

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