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 Post subject: IS RELAPSE INEVITABLE?
PostPosted: Fri Apr 12, 2019 5:40 pm 
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Based on the experiences of the forum users, is the relapse of SA's inevitable? Are we, the partners, always to be on our guard? Could years go by before a relapse, I mean is it ever something truly out of their system?


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PostPosted: Sat Apr 13, 2019 7:38 am 
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Brighid - Jon made helpful points about relapse. It is not inevitable. If they are sincere and work on their recovery, they won't relapse. But, sadly, it is common. I don't believe my husband has relapsed during these last six years, but I do believe he had lots of slips in the first years and still engages in slippery behavior. I also believe that over time his awareness of what was addictive behavior expanded so that the less overt acting act was something he needed to stop.

And we know that they can relapse after years of sobriety. Jon talks about their need to never become complacent. They need to continue to monitor their emotional well being and to adjust early when they start to go off the rails. So complacency is a risk. I also think some of the long term relapses I hear about are examples of addicts who were not fully recovered. I think some were white knuckling it and just caved. Some I think were just getting better at hiding their addiction and had progressed so that the relapse was really just a discovery.

I think the painful reality is they are always at risk. I think if we stay, we need to be aware we are in a relationship that will forever be in recovery. That is, our partners will need to be aware and committed to staying sober and more importantly creating a healthy way to live for the rest of their lives. Another way to say it, is they need to be committed to their personal growth until their last breath. And, we have to be aware to pay attention to our gut feelings and to assess our partner's maturity, emotional equilibrium and commitment to a healthy lifestyle.

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PostPosted: Sat Apr 13, 2019 8:46 pm 
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dnell, thanks for that :)

My husband feels his biggest risk will be complacency and has become very aware of the importance of self monitoring and what to do if this begins to happen. Whilst I believe his determination in following this path, I do suppose there will always be a niggle that he may not.

Whilst it makes perfect sense to always stay on our guard, I do find it deeply sad. Maintaining a loving relationship is hard enough without that particular addition, and this makes me completely understand why some partners choose NOT to stay in the relationship.


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PostPosted: Mon Apr 15, 2019 7:08 am 
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What is very difficult to accept for me is that
whatever I do, how much I show love/ care/ attention (or not), How deep I invest in the relationship (or keep it very light commitment), How much I'm vigilant etc...
the threat of a relapse will always be there.
This is very sad , and sometimes make me feel powerless.

I don't want to be forever vigilant , always on my guard .

Once I told my partner that in our relationship I can not do anything to prevent him from slip/relapse. And this is the risk I'm taking by staying in the relationship. So if one day he slips/relapses, it will be 100% his fault. Because he can lie so well, that I may not notice anything. and It is not up to me to be checking on him and his recovery. I felt like "lighter" after telling him that, like I managed to shift back some of the responsibility I have tendency to carry for him.


I'm trying to keep up with my boundaries, to ensure I'm respected as a woman and as a partner. These boundaries helps me to feel more on control . And I believe they would help me to notice some behaviour change (like if he starts back to tell confusing stories about when he is back, what he is doing. or not making any effort for arranging time for 2 of us etc...)


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PostPosted: Mon Apr 15, 2019 8:20 am 
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Thank you ana13. I absolutely get where you are coming from knowing that any slip or relapse cannot be prevented by the partner no matter how totally wonderful we are lol! Personally, on the logical front I know this to be true, but unfortunately I think there will always be the low self esteem part of me that would think I was at least partly to blame. I will continue to work on that nonsense!

Yes, I suppose ultimately, in choosing to stay with our partners and hoping they stay in recovery will mean a lifetime's vigilance and something we just have to get on with.


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PostPosted: Wed Apr 17, 2019 11:08 am 
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I would say exactly as the others — it’s not inevitable but it’s possible, even after some years into recovery. I don’t believe my husband has relapsed but I do believe there have been slips and slippery behaviours, as ingrained/habitual ‘hangovers’ from addiction and a consequence of as poor judgement.

Complacency is definitely the enemy but I’d also say that addicts in recovery can start pushing at the limits of what Paula Hall describes as “iffy” behaviours. The difficulty is that even addicts in recovery can justify the iffy behaviours as ‘natural’ or ‘instinctive’ rather than recognising that they are in control, not some primitive brain function. The problem with addiction is that the reward pathways in the brain have been reinforced by years of repeating the behaviour that produced the high.

I’m not a gambler, for example, so advertisements and enticements to gamble have zero influence on me, but for someone who has developed a compulsion to gamble, they respond to the cues and invitations to gamble and some people find that it’s very difficult to resist. But for me, it barely registers. Sex and porn addicts are also susceptible to particular cues. Not just visual prompts but emotional triggers too, like stress, depression, etc. There’s no one thing that must be avoided, it’s usually a cluster of factors. Addicts need to learn for themselves what their vulnerabilities are, and they can be difficult to identify.

There is one school of thought, however, which says that relapses are important as learning experiences. I’m not sure that I agree with this. For people who relapse repeatedly, I can see that it’s worth asking why it keeps happening. I think some addicts use the ‘relapse’ excuse as a free pass. I don’t call that quitting. I don’t call it recovery. I call it addiction behaviour. As partners, I think we need to be very wary of communities who prop up this cycle of behaviour as a definition of being in recovery.

Relapses aren’t inevitable, but it happens, what is important isn’t so much the relapse behaviour but how it is handled within your relationship. If your partner admits to it, or volunteers the facts, that’s a much better sign than someone who denies it and gaslights you.


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PostPosted: Thu Apr 18, 2019 7:25 pm 
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Thank you for your input Blue In Paradise, it is much appreciated :)

I would agree with you about disagreeing that relapses are important as learning experiences. That sounds like something to be encouraged which in my view is totally unacceptable! And would also agree with you when you say that some addicts use the relapse excuse as a free pass and, yes, for us, avoidance of communities that prop up that type of behaviour should be avoided at all costs.

My expectations of my H are that if he even ponders slipping back into the dark side, he talks to me about it before anything happens. Nipping it in the bud, looking at what is prompting the issues, is the key. if only he had done this before.................


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