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PostPosted: Tue Feb 04, 2020 8:29 am 
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Hi Sperans
And welcome to RN.

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For the last 2 weeks I'm experiencing some kind of emptiness. I read about it. I'm only surprised it came so quickly. It looks like feeling the lack of life's sense, like having a kind of spiritual void, a kind of inner fear and pain I can't find explanations for. What keeps me away from these feeling is I am very busy over the week. I don't know how to deal with this kind of feelings.


That void will continue until you fill it with healthy living.
This is where your goals and values have to kick in, they will take you away from that void and towards life with sex addiction.
I cannot tell you how much this workshop will help you, but hopefully you will see for yourself.

It is good to hear that you have abstained from your compulsive behaviour and long may it continue :g:

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PostPosted: Sat Feb 08, 2020 12:13 pm 
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My top 15 refined value list:
1 - Accepting responsibility for living my life
2 - Establishing a partnership with B.
3 - Experiencing fatherhood
4 - Living with integrity
5 - Masculinity
6 - Realistic
7 - Sexual intimacy
8 - Strengthening my role as a partner to B.
9 - Adaptability
10 - Feeling happy and content
11 - Instilling healthy values in my kids
12 - Intellectual growth, debate, communication
13 - Living with compassion
14 - Personal independence
15 - being shameless and provocative


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PostPosted: Sat Feb 08, 2020 12:44 pm 
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While talking to my wife I can see how seriously she is struggling with my addiction. On one hand she doesn't believe in my success in recovery. On the other hand she doesn't want to experience to get hurt again. Sometimes the tiniest misunderstandings lead to pouring the whole ocean of hatred and grief on me. I can understand what is going on with her, but it is not easy for me. The more I don't have proper facilities to defend myself from addictive acting out.


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PostPosted: Thu Feb 13, 2020 2:58 am 
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sperans wrote:
While talking to my wife I can see how seriously she is struggling with my addiction. On one hand she doesn't believe in my success in recovery. On the other hand she doesn't want to experience to get hurt again. Sometimes the tiniest misunderstandings lead to pouring the whole ocean of hatred and grief on me. I can understand what is going on with her, but it is not easy for me. The more I don't have proper facilities to defend myself from addictive acting out.


Hi Sperans,

I understand the situation that is going on with your wife and have experienced very similar with my W too, in fact it is still going on to some extent, but I would say that the frequency is now a lot less.
What I would say to you is, I felt in my early stages that I would use every tool available to keep me on track, and seeing W so hurt and in pain just made me more determined.

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PostPosted: Sat Feb 15, 2020 6:10 pm 
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Theseus1112 wrote:
sperans wrote:
I understand the situation that is going on with your wife and have experienced very similar with my W too, in fact it is still going on to some extent, but I would say that the frequency is now a lot less.
What I would say to you is, I felt in my early stages that I would use every tool available to keep me on track, and seeing W so hurt and in pain just made me more determined.

Thank you for your support Theseus. I really appreciate any response to my posts, especially when I'm writing about my daily experiences. Thank you very much.


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PostPosted: Sat Feb 15, 2020 6:11 pm 
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Proactive Action Plan: Masculinity
- checking local oportunities for going to gym
- telling the truth to my beloved ones in any circumstances, especially to B
- while beeing together with B I'm going to be genuine sincere
- all everyday ongoings will be discussed with B on the regular basis every evening, even the shameful ones
- I will not be kind to my daughter's teachers more than necessary
- I will set the bounderies to my cousin who want to meddle in my family’s affairs
- While making decisions about my family I don't owe my cousins any explanations only because I'm younger.
- I'm having some concerns about my mother, who lives far away from me and who needs some support from me because of her age but I'm not going to discuss this matter with anybody except for my wife

Proactive Action Plan: Feeling happy and content
- get up earlier to have time for beeing alone and set up my mind to be gratefull for my life
- asure my family how much they are important for me
- stay focused on my here and now instead of analyzing my past that cannot be changed;
- refrain from negative remarks about the people I don't apreciate, even it is so
- while talking about daily ongoings always to see "bright sides of live", even if a specific situation may be seen as a kind of defeat;
- see eventually setbacks as new oportunities to grow and share them with B in any situation


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PostPosted: Mon Feb 17, 2020 5:45 am 
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Proactive Action Plan: Accepting responsibility for living my life
- to talk about all significant ongoings with my partner at least before going to bed
- to stop manipulating myself if it comes to the ongoings I want to cover, by calling them unsignificant
- to be straightforward when talking about the situations which show my immaturity or negligence
- to refrain from using the words softening the facts I wish, they had never happened
- to fix wrongs done, even if facing the victim of my wrong doing is necessary
- to confess my resposibility for my addiction when necessary but to not use it as an excuse for my laziness


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PostPosted: Thu Feb 20, 2020 4:32 am 
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Proactive Action Plan: Establishing partnership with B.
- setting up the fundamentals of communication
- Share with absolute honesty - absence of secrecy;
- Express my emotions openly and spontaneously
- Work on expressing myself without any delay, without taking time to prepare the verbal content I want to submit
- Express my emotions with vulnerability
- Monitor B. for signs of frustration and work to overcome this, not get drawn into it; by looking for way to reach her emotionally, refrain from flattery
- Monitor myself for signs of frustration; while expressing negative emotions to base them on the here and now situation
- Initiate meaningful communication on a daily basis, but always on the same day, not later than in the evening on busy days. Don't sit back and wait for B to do it
- Answer B's questions with more than one or two word responses; Don’t change subject if not convenient for me
- Sit down with B every assigned day of the week to prioritize home maintenance/chore issues
- Use maturity in problem solving each issue
- Need to set aside certain times of my life to do what needs to be done so that such a burden doesn't fall to my partner, without gratitude expectations from her side
Support, encourage B. with her health issues:
- Be patient with her whimsical nature when it comes to taking prescribed medicines or following the medical recommendations
- Showing acceptance and love while she is struggling with her doles
- Showing interest and support while B is showing her plans for renovating the house or when discussing the plans for holidays


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PostPosted: Thu Feb 20, 2020 8:49 am 
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Hello S

you wrote
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While talking to my wife I can see how seriously she is struggling with my addiction. On one hand she doesn't believe in my success in recovery. On the other hand she doesn't want to experience to get hurt again.



T responded saying he has similar experiences, well I believe that this will be true for most if not all SA in a relationship

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My wife discovered my addiction or better to say my second life about 12 years ago.
I tried with the treatment for porn and masturbation adicts almost 8 years ago. I gave up the therapy very soon.


so from the shoulder should you be surprised by her fear, her doubt, her questioning, ?No



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I can understand what is going on with her, but it is not easy for me.


I suggest that you concentrate on your recovery, be supportive in her healing, but let her set her own pace

You are guilty but you know that already so , for now, put that guilt to one side and prove / demonstrate change
RN can and will help and guide but the drive needs to come from you , your positive start herein demonstrates to me that you are up for this , so keep that going
:g: :g:

does she know that you are here, is she getting support from the good side of the RN programme?

I hope so :pe:

finally


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to confess my resposibility for my addiction when necessary but to not use it as an excuse for my laziness


I wish that this had read

to confess my resposibility for my addiction at all times and to not use it as an excuse for anything

I hope that you take this reply as being positive and wish you well in the continuation of your journey

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Every transition begins with an ending
Do not confuse happiness with seeking pleasure
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